Tuesday, June 17, 2008

3:00 AM OD on caffiene mints and orange soda

So as you may or may not know, my father's getting re-married this coming Monday. While he's stressing and sometimes freaking, I am, as usual, unaffected by the current situation. I've noticed this happening more and more recently; I just can't... process... events and situations into emotions, I barely get excited for things I've been waiting forever for and that mean a lot to me. Very few events and moments hold a special place, that make me happy they happened, or make me disgusting just remembering. I almost feel as if I'm in a stupor, or possibly not meant for this time and place, definitely not tiny Greene County.
It's not necessarily 'wanderlust', as much as I like traveling, more that just wishing I had something to do now to be able to begin the rest of my life; this just seems like the dull, redundant series of events that are made seemingly mandatory by society. I wish I could just go to college now for music, not worrying about the basic plot of a book I hate and will never come up in conversation, or some meaningless date of the birth of some guy who means nothing to me, or some meaningless math equation I'll never need to use or know about.
I just wish this stupid 'no child left behind' would go away; it's hurting everyone, passing people who shouldn't just so everyone looks good. I also wish there was some way to describe your situation to strangers, even if you shouldn't care what they think of the tall, chubby guy wearing makeup, a long dress, and far-too small high heels buying ice cream at the local joint. Back to the school, kids should be able to choose ALL classes they want to take, not having any mandatory (well of course, you'd had to of taken Algebra 2 for Precalc, etc. but I mean full tracts of courses). I'm sure this would lead to many taking few to none classes, but these are the people who would end up head fry chef at McDonalds anyway, so that's class time and teacher's stress levels saved. While it's nice to of learned things in BRVGS and other classes I have taken, I'll never need the information. I'm sure Megan, if you decide to be a volcanologist, will not have to know about the history of European Religions at any point in time, but I'd imagine you would enjoy learning about them.
Alas, the government tells us this is how it is, so we accept it.
Alas, the Bible tells us this is how it is, so we accept it.
Alas, our neighbor tells us this is how it is, so we accept it.
I'm tired of the 'socially acceptable' bullshit. These things we spend years of our lives so that new coworker doesn't assume you're an idiot because you didn't go to a full four-year college.
People need to base their ideas on others on the person, not being pedantic about things, and listening to why they only went to college for one year, why they don't know the history of New Guinea.
Knowledge only needs to be known for the task you do. The rest, basically, is all bullshit mating rituals and customs.
Thank you, Andrea, for being so different and so loving, so beautiful and smart, so unique (just like everyone else), and understanding me, caring for me, and (if possible) understanding the above rant, and thanks for being so awesome. I love you.
Thank you, everyone else, for maybe embracing change and living not just for the sake of living.

Oh; and almost forgot why I posted in the first place; My dad's wedding.
I'm the director of music for it, and they don't want the traditional wedding march. Any ideas for what could be used instead?
I was thinking Beatles, one of the more acoustic ballad-y songs.
But if anyone else has a suggestion, I'm happy to listen.

9 comments:

Andrea said...

Gawd I love you.

Yeah, screw this, let's run away to Italy.

Andrea said...

As for the song... "Let it Be" has a nice peaceful sound to it, but I guess it's too somber for a wedding. I'll let you know if I think of anything.

Anonymous said...

i wouldn't do let it be either....i am not really sure...

and i completely agree with the whole idea of society forcing us to be what they want us to be ....

it really leaves no room for individual growth and expression

Anonymous said...

I completely agree w/ you Nicole and Alex on this matter.

What about "Across the universe" or "Imagine?"

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Alex said...

Love you more, Andrea ;]

Thanks, guys; 'Imagine' sounds the best so far....

Hehe, I had no idea I was about to rant; I started out talking about the wedding and was... inspired.

Hunter, you're banned from life.

Elysia said...

good, i was just about to say that (about hunter)

yah, u r sounding anarchist to the max.

and i love world history, just b/c i want to be (and never will be)a volcanologist, doesn't mean i have to take courses just in that, that almost sounds communistic

can't help u with the wedding song bit, as u guys would say "i don't know what it's like"

ugh, i really need to stop

Anonymous said...

So, I take it that Hunter has a blog and he calls himself Skeletor. I've heard a lot of strange stories concerning him.

Andrea said...

This post just messed with my head. Feels like so long ago... it WAS so long ago.

I hope you don't have comment notification.